• Inger-Maren Fjeldheim

Goodbye 2020! It's been weird

I'm continuing the trend of speaking about 2020 for a little bit longer, and then I will wipe it from my memory forever. But at the turn of a new year, I always look back and reflect a little bit on what I've learned in the past year, and I will not stop now. Even though the lessons learned in 2020 weren't the most pleasant ones. Some of them might seem obvious to you, and some might be insightful. Nevertheless, I urge you to do some reflecting of your own before we start this new and bright future. It's been weird, but I'm sure you can find some light points scattered across the year. But without further ado, here is 20 things I learned in 2020:

1 I am not immortal

At the beginning of 2020 I had some problems with my health that has lasted all throughout the year. It's been a rollercoaster ride, and I've had times where I've been quite scared.

I think a lot of young people have this naive sense that we can't die. At least, I've had it all my life, but that is gone forever. It might not be a terrible thing, though.

2 Although I love watching trash TV, I hate the way it makes me feel

It's been a lot of TV, Netflix and movies this year, and I love just relaxing in front of the screen and do nothing but watch other people do things. That being said, it makes me feel really lousy. There are other things I find relaxing that I would rather be doing.

3 I really do love hugging people

No, we're not done talking about this. 2020 was a year where I can count the hugs I've received on two hands. And it sucks! I love hugging my friends, and I can't wait to get back to it!

4 I am resilient in face of challenges

I've always thought I was the kind of person who had trouble with any kind of change of plans. This year has taught me that changing the plan ten times, I can still pick myself up and keep going.

5 My work ethic comes in spurts

This is something I need to work on in the new year. I work well for some time, eat well, work out, practice, write, study- I do all of it for a time, and then I do nothing for awhile, until I reevaluate and relaunch. Not the best way to be working.

6 I love being alone, but I need people more than I thought

I'm not a loner, but I do enjoy being alone. That doesn't mean I don't like people; I'm not an introvert. 2020 as it turns out, became the year where I was alone too much. I can't wait to see my friends again, go out for a beer and some dancing, and then the moments alone become treasured rarities again.

7 I'm really good at knitting

I've been knitting for a long time, and I know I've been quite good for a while, but this year my knitting production skyrocketed. I've knitted more than ever, and more complicated things than I've ever done before. It doesn't look like I'm about to stop anytime soon either.

I knitted my first cable knit this year.

8 I want too many things

I want to do everything, and I want to do them now. Not necessarily the best way to do things. It would be best if I could prioritise and do things one at the time, but I'm a restless person who wants to see results for my projects right away. Not likely to change, but I do need to work on managing it.

9 Being a nerd is the best way to live

I've been a nerd all my life, but for a few years I've sort of hidden that part of me away in some situations. No more, nerds have more fun because we love things!

10 I want a tiny house

I've already started preparing building my own tiny house on wheels. It's going to be so exciting, and I will keep you posted when I get started.

11 You can't DIY everything

When lockdown started, I think most people started looking around for new things to try. Although I have more than enough hobbies to keep me busy, I too started trying new things. It turns out however, you can't DIY everything. For example I decided I was going to start dyeing my own wool, but I think I will leave that to those who know how to do it.

12 I miss Iceland- a lot!

As soon as they open the borders, and it's safe to travel, I'm going to Iceland. I recently got back in touch with some friends over there, and I can't wait to see them. Plus, Iceland is amazing. You should totally go!

eyjafjallajökull- the Icelandic volcano giving flights so much trouble a few years ago.

13 Macramé is not cool, and I don't think it every will be

This is also a part of my attempt at DIY projects. Looking up videos on Youtube, I found that macramé is trendy again. I hate it, so much, and that will probably never change. Go ahead, make coasters and wall hangings to your hearts content. Just keep me out of it.

14 I don't need most of my things

After we sold the house I grew up in, most of my things ended up in a storage unit. Sure, there are things I miss and look forward to getting back, but I think I can get rid of most of the stuff out there.

15 Analog things are more relaxing than digital ones

A bit of the same as number 2. Reading books is more relaxing than TV or E-books, writing by hand feels nicer than on the computer. Digital is convenient for speed and access, but I want to try to be more analog in the coming year.

16 I won't die from a frozen meal once in awhile

17 I really, really, really love tartan

This came through my love for knitting. I found some patterns with tartan, and fell in love with it- again. Tartan is back to stay. At least in my wardrobe.

18 A whole year without progress didn't set me back as much as I thought it would

Hard to say if this is a good or a bad thing, but I've concluded it's not the best. You don't have much coming for you if a whole year back or forth doesn't set you back. Thinking back however, a lot of my plans for 2020 were completely spoiled, so it's not really true. I've just managed to stay positive and look ahead instead of lamenting the past. Which is a good thing. So if I can move forward quickly in the coming months, I don't think it's too bad of a thing, after all.

19 I'm done being what people want me to be

A lot of my choices throughout my life has been influenced by expectations of me. It's a terribly difficult thing to admit to yourself that you actually don't want the one thing you've worked towards for years, but I'm working on it as well as finding out what I do want.

20 I'm so ready to welcome a new year!

As my last post read; Let's make 2021 our bitch! We've crossed the finish line and hit the new race in on swift swoop. 2021 is underway, and I think we all agree that we will at least make it better than 2020.

Here's to us and that we make it!

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